Dear Blog, I apologize for abandoning you for so long. To make up, I will write a LONG post.
November 22, 2008. This day will forever be a favorite in my memory tank. It will remind me of the beauty of the world around me. It will ignite a joy and a passion for the one person I love the most.
This is the day I stopped having a boyfriend and started having a fiance (omg...freaking out inside just writing that out for the first time). Yes, fellow blog readers, Micah and I are engaged! I guess I'll just launch into the story, since who doesn't want all the juicy details?
As much as I love my job, I many times unwantingly give up gorgeous san francisco saturdays to work. I of course do not like this aspect of my job, but I understand the necessity and therefore roll with the life I've chosen. So this past saturday (november 22) I hopped into a cab because I was running late and dashed to work. I met with two clients. My last client I thought was not going to be an interview, but it was and therefore pushed my work load over an hour longer than it usually is. Moving along...
The plan: Micah was supposed to pick me up from work and we scheduled to drive north to Marin to meet up with our friend Sarah for a nice hike along the ocean. My work delayed us by an hour, but around 3pm we were off. Micah had bought be a sandwich and an almond croissant from La Boulange (of which he had eaten half of both), and I gobbled them up.
Going over the Golden Gate bridge to Marin
When we made it to our destination, Rodeo Beach, Sarah was nowhere to be found. At this very moment, I began feeling a peculiar sensation. My thought process: Micah has quite a large backpack for such a small hike, Sarah is nowhere to be seen, and we have been talking about marriage for some time now. Ok, ok, basically I let my imagination side get the hold of my brain and it ran wild. I slowly convinced myself, through the butterflies swarming in my stomach and creeping up my throat, that this might be the day Micah was going to propose.
Fast forward 15 minutes and guess who shows up...Sarah. (Sarah, if you're reading this, I do love you. I promise the fact that my spirts plummeted were simply connected to my proposal bubble being burst, not that I was sad to see you). So we embarked on our adventure. I admit I was what my friend Emily explicitly pinpointed a "Debbie Downer." I wanted to forget about my expectations. I wanted to center myself on the beauty that surrounded me. I was just miles from the city, yet I felt worlds away. There was the ocean before me in all its glory. There were deers grazing and birds fluttering. It was beautiful. I tried, honestly I did, I tried to focus on this beauty and not Micah's frustrating lack of commitment. In fact, at one point my non-confrontational side even laid down for me to tell Micah I was sad because I thought maybe something else was going to happen (i.e. get proposed to). I wanted to move on from this false expectation and enjoy the afternoon.
We hiked. We hiked about 40 minutes up to the top of a ridge. Micah declared, "It's a one of a kind day" (Yes, he is usually that over the top, so I did not suspect much). Even though less than a minute later, Sarah announced, "I have to pee, I'm going to find a bush, you guys go ahead," I still did not suspect anything. We walked over a few feet to a breath-taking outlook. Micah asked me to take a picture. I told him no, I did not feel like it. Micah said, "Come on, take a picture with me." I again told him no, but eventually conceded to take a picture of just him. (I know I'm a horrible person.)
the view
the picture
At which time, Micah tells me I'm making this difficult for him. He gets down on one knee. He tells me, among other things, that he loves me and respects me. Many people say they don't remember what was said during the proposal and for me it is sadly no different. I was taken off guard. I kept asking Micah what he was doing instead of listeing intently to what he was saying. Finally "the question" came: "Will you marry me?" He fumbled around in his pocket and brought out the ring. We were almost interrupted by some small children, but I think their parents shuffled them away. Oh, did I mention I said YES, because I did.
Next came my first suspicion fulfilled. The backpack. Micah brought out a blanket, a bottle of wine, cheese and crackers, and chocolate! We sat down and watched the sunset. Here's the series of photos that followed:
Oh, and our view of Rodeo Beach at sunset:
After 20 minutes of hands down the most enjoyous sunset I've experienced, the fog rolled in. It encompassed us. It clothed the ocean and the beach. It was mysterious. We hiked down and met back up with Sarah in the parking lot. We hugged and jumped up and down and I'm so excited she was their to share in our moment. I'm was even more happy to find out she had hid behind us and taken great photos of the proposal.
As Micah and I drove back to our beloved city in our borrowed City Car Share, I called my parents and my bevy of girlfriends. It was much fun to replay the memory of the hour before. I think the best thing of repeating our engagement story to the masses is the way it cements into my mind each time I tell it.
The dinner:
Micah took me to Ana Mandara. It is owned by Don Johnson of Miami Vice. The story behind dinner is that Micah had told me we were going out to dinner with his boss and his boss' husband. Rewind back to the parking lot jumping up and down with Sarah, and she blurts "You know you're going to dinner just the two of you." Well, I do now! Anyway, the resturant was spectacular. The name Ana Mandara translates as "Beautiful Refuge." It is named after a ancient Vietnamese love story between a Princess and an Army General. In a Romeo and Juliet esque setting, the princess was married to a nearby king despite her love for the general. The king's first wife plotted against her and to save the princess her family sends in the general. He wisked her away to an "Ana Mandara" where they live together happily for a year. The great love story ends in tragedy when the two decide to return home (knowing that it would not be easy). The young general was executed and the princess lived the rest of her life in a convent, forever separated from her greatest love. But the princess never forgot her "Ana Mandara."
The story is sad, but our dinner experience was everything but that.
We started the evening in the lounge, sipping some cocktails and listening to the live band. Afterwards, we moved downstairs to the main floor where we were seated at a table overlooking the restaurant. Micah had delivered flowers early in the day and there they sat in all their autumn glory on our table.
The inside of Ana Mandara is very hollywood. It looks like you're on a set. As you can maybe see in the picture above, there are building facades inside. The lights on the ceiling look like set lights.
Our meal was fantastic. We got a bottle of riesling and spring rolls to start. Moving to the entrees, Micah got lobster (from Maine) and I got the fish of the day which was Halibut. It was a spectacular firework display of flavors in my mouth. Then our waiter came out and gave us our bottle of champagne compliments of Gil (Micah's boss). I suppose here is where I should give Gil a shout-out since he played an integral part in the planning. He was so excited when Micah told him he was going to propose. He gave him ideas for a resturant and then when Micah picked Ana Mandara, Gil took Micah and the rest of his team there for lunch so Micah could take it for a test drive. They sat at different tables to pick the right one. Thank you Gil for all your planning and excitement over our engagement day.
Dessert deserves a mini-paragraph all to it's own. Here's what we got.
Mine: a chocolate molten lava cake with raspberry sauce and vanilla ice cream
Micah's: chocolate mousse and strawberries
DELICIOUS!
Recap: After 5 hours of work, 45 minutes of hiking, 20 minutes of admiring the sunset, and over 3 hours of relishing our dinner..Micah and I are engaged.
And we will remain engaged until sometime Summer '09. Stay tuned for updates!
11.23.2008
11.17.2008
my friend-pool playing-sushi-bonfire-sunshine filled weekend
The festivities started when Amy and Charlie pulled into San Francisco after an extended 3 1/2 hour car ride from Sacramento. Ji Hae was over and we were off to celebrate the beginning of her birthday weekend. We jumped on the bus and rode to the inner richmond where we gorged ourselves on korean food. From there we hit up the bar "Buckshot" which was just across the street. We played some skee-ball (can I hear a chuckie cheese shout out). We bar hopped down a block or so to play some pool and Ji had her first stoplight (series of green, yellow, and red shots)!
(photos to come)
Saturday morning woke up and with Micah, Amy, and Charlie in tow I headed to Eddy's, my favorite breakfast place in SF. Oh the goodness of a greasy plate of scrambled eggs, bacon, and hashbrowns, served up with a biscuit and cup of diner coffee (V-I can only imagine this is the addictive quality of Luke's diner).
After breakfast, we meandered up to Alamo Sqaure. Ji Hae met up with us and we chatted and sun bathed in the park with a spectacular view of San Francisco's eloquent victorian houses and bustling downtown. Sadly, after some refreshing beverages, Amy and Charlie had to embark on their trip back to Sacramento.
**Here we are at Alamo Square**
Micah and I watched the first part of the Alabama football game. Oh yeah, they're still number 1!!
Saturday night, we met up with some more friends to have dinner in honor of Ji Hae's 23rd birthday. We celebrated in style with a sushi dinner. It was delicious, but I think I was more full than I have ever been before after a sushi meal. Side note: sushi is better in smaller groups, maybe not meant for a 15 person dining experience. Since the night was still young and the warmth still hung in the air, we went to Ocean Beach where we raced to find a pit for the bondfire. A few park ranger mandates, reese's cup smores, and sparklers later my exhausted body retired for the evening.
**Expecto Patronus**
**The whole gang at the bondfire**
But the weekend was not over yet; Sunday was another sun-filled day. Micah and I rode our bikes into Golden Gate park to meet some more friends for another Ji Hae birthday celebration. We met at Stow Lake and paddle boated around the central island. It was a beautiful day. It was sunny and clear.
**Roomies**
**Me and my favorite person**
**the pagoda**
**All the paddle boaters** (please take note of the short sleeves & tank tops we are all wearing in mid-November)
Happy Birthday Ji Hae and thank you for the wonderful, fun-filled weekend!
(photos to come)
Saturday morning woke up and with Micah, Amy, and Charlie in tow I headed to Eddy's, my favorite breakfast place in SF. Oh the goodness of a greasy plate of scrambled eggs, bacon, and hashbrowns, served up with a biscuit and cup of diner coffee (V-I can only imagine this is the addictive quality of Luke's diner).
After breakfast, we meandered up to Alamo Sqaure. Ji Hae met up with us and we chatted and sun bathed in the park with a spectacular view of San Francisco's eloquent victorian houses and bustling downtown. Sadly, after some refreshing beverages, Amy and Charlie had to embark on their trip back to Sacramento.
**Here we are at Alamo Square**
Micah and I watched the first part of the Alabama football game. Oh yeah, they're still number 1!!
Saturday night, we met up with some more friends to have dinner in honor of Ji Hae's 23rd birthday. We celebrated in style with a sushi dinner. It was delicious, but I think I was more full than I have ever been before after a sushi meal. Side note: sushi is better in smaller groups, maybe not meant for a 15 person dining experience. Since the night was still young and the warmth still hung in the air, we went to Ocean Beach where we raced to find a pit for the bondfire. A few park ranger mandates, reese's cup smores, and sparklers later my exhausted body retired for the evening.
**Expecto Patronus**
**The whole gang at the bondfire**
But the weekend was not over yet; Sunday was another sun-filled day. Micah and I rode our bikes into Golden Gate park to meet some more friends for another Ji Hae birthday celebration. We met at Stow Lake and paddle boated around the central island. It was a beautiful day. It was sunny and clear.
**Roomies**
**Me and my favorite person**
**the pagoda**
**All the paddle boaters** (please take note of the short sleeves & tank tops we are all wearing in mid-November)
Happy Birthday Ji Hae and thank you for the wonderful, fun-filled weekend!
11.14.2008
Click
Click. Click. Click.
How often can you click your gum in a 30 second period of time?
TOO often.
Ok, so here's another client story:
I met with client j this morning. She was chewing gum when she came in. I don't mind a gum chewer. I mean, I like gum, why shouldn't others. Oh, but wait, this is no normal gum chewer. J is a gum clicker. I doubt that is actually a term, but I don't know how else to classify it. A gum clicker is someone that constantly and unceasinly clicks their gum. It is an obnoxious habit to listen to, one that makes me want to pull out all my hair and rip off all my fingernails in order to create a distraction pulling my focus away from the clicking.
The clicking just kept going. I met with her for a little over an hour and the clicking didn't stop. How is that possible? Didn't she get tired of the repetitive motion of moving her tongue in her mouth to produce the fingernails-on-chalkboard click? Didn't she? Didn't she?
I wanted a fifteen minute break after meeting with J just to clear the sound out of my head. I think I can hear it still.
Click. Click. Click.
How often can you click your gum in a 30 second period of time?
TOO often.
Ok, so here's another client story:
I met with client j this morning. She was chewing gum when she came in. I don't mind a gum chewer. I mean, I like gum, why shouldn't others. Oh, but wait, this is no normal gum chewer. J is a gum clicker. I doubt that is actually a term, but I don't know how else to classify it. A gum clicker is someone that constantly and unceasinly clicks their gum. It is an obnoxious habit to listen to, one that makes me want to pull out all my hair and rip off all my fingernails in order to create a distraction pulling my focus away from the clicking.
The clicking just kept going. I met with her for a little over an hour and the clicking didn't stop. How is that possible? Didn't she get tired of the repetitive motion of moving her tongue in her mouth to produce the fingernails-on-chalkboard click? Didn't she? Didn't she?
I wanted a fifteen minute break after meeting with J just to clear the sound out of my head. I think I can hear it still.
Click. Click. Click.
11.13.2008
my morning/afternoon
Here's a glance at what I did today:
I sat at the same old kitchen table, working out of the same old gre book, and studying the same old gre flashcards. The one thing that did change? What I put in my belly!
And now for my favorite salad.
Here's the recipe:
Ingredients:
-greens/spinach
-goat cheese (or feta)
-apple slices
-craisins
-pomegranate seeds
-walnuts/pecans
Toss the greens/spinach with a balsamic dressing (see recipe below). Layer with the rest of the ingredients. If you're feeling extra crazy, drizzle a little more balsamic dressing on top.
Balsamic dressing: (serves 4)
Ingredients:
-2 tablespoons balsamic vinegar
-1 tablespoon red wine vinegar
-1 tablespoon dijon mustard
-1 teaspoon light brown sugar
-1 garlic clove, minced
-1/2 teaspoon salt
-1/4 teaspoon pepper
-1/4 cup extra virgin olive oil
Mix all ingredients except olive oil. Then add oil to mixture and mix well with whisk.
Enjoy!
I sat at the same old kitchen table, working out of the same old gre book, and studying the same old gre flashcards. The one thing that did change? What I put in my belly!
And now for my favorite salad.
Here's the recipe:
Ingredients:
-greens/spinach
-goat cheese (or feta)
-apple slices
-craisins
-pomegranate seeds
-walnuts/pecans
Toss the greens/spinach with a balsamic dressing (see recipe below). Layer with the rest of the ingredients. If you're feeling extra crazy, drizzle a little more balsamic dressing on top.
Balsamic dressing: (serves 4)
Ingredients:
-2 tablespoons balsamic vinegar
-1 tablespoon red wine vinegar
-1 tablespoon dijon mustard
-1 teaspoon light brown sugar
-1 garlic clove, minced
-1/2 teaspoon salt
-1/4 teaspoon pepper
-1/4 cup extra virgin olive oil
Mix all ingredients except olive oil. Then add oil to mixture and mix well with whisk.
Enjoy!
11.12.2008
a bevy of girls
Today is one of those days that I just really miss having girlfriends. So to assuage my sense of loneliness, here's a plethora of nostalgic photographs.
**cg and v celebrating h & m's birthdays (without them)
**cg and a enjoying july 4th celebration
**cg and mk pushing/pulling each other into a lake
**cg and sm looking at the san francisco bay
**cg and e conversing over coffee in denver
**cg and a after an afternoon of wine tasting
**cg and h celebrating christmas in union square
**cg and e disagreeing with a bevy of old men
**h, cg, and mk loving the traditional christmas dinner
**cg and v revisiting downtown rockport
Can you pick out the gre words of the day?
**cg and v celebrating h & m's birthdays (without them)
**cg and a enjoying july 4th celebration
**cg and mk pushing/pulling each other into a lake
**cg and sm looking at the san francisco bay
**cg and e conversing over coffee in denver
**cg and a after an afternoon of wine tasting
**cg and h celebrating christmas in union square
**cg and e disagreeing with a bevy of old men
**h, cg, and mk loving the traditional christmas dinner
**cg and v revisiting downtown rockport
Can you pick out the gre words of the day?
11.10.2008
It's official
Today marks the day I made it official. It is no longer an idea swishing around in my head. It is no longer pointless preparing for a day yet unconfirmed.
Today I signed up for the gre. It is official. I take it one month from tomorrow on December 11, 2008. Now my studying takes on a new level as each passing minute brings mid-december closer and closer.
Goal: From now until gre day, I will try to incorporate new gre words into blog posts! Perhaps this will hold me more accountable to studying my gre "vocabulary in a box" flash cards.
Today I signed up for the gre. It is official. I take it one month from tomorrow on December 11, 2008. Now my studying takes on a new level as each passing minute brings mid-december closer and closer.
Goal: From now until gre day, I will try to incorporate new gre words into blog posts! Perhaps this will hold me more accountable to studying my gre "vocabulary in a box" flash cards.
11.08.2008
Ode to Alabama
11.07.2008
frustration
I know when clients call and leave me a message they want to hear back from me (usually as soon as possible). So that's what I try to do. In fact, I'm much better at calling people back, then let's say my co-workers. I tally that as a plus.
Ok, so this is going to sound mean, but I really don't think that some of my clients understand that they aren't my only client. For example, yesterday I was in the office, just in the morning. I came in specifically to meet with two different clients. I probably should have checked my voicemail, but I didn't.
I came in the office this morning. I checked my voicemail. I had 4 messages. First message was from yesterday. It was from client X. X told me that she needed to talk to me asap and to call her back as soon as I listened to her message. The second message is from X's number. She did not leave a message, but her number came up in the Caller ID. Third message. Guess who it's from? It's from X! She tells me in an exasperated voice that she's been calling and she reminds me I have yet to call her back. Really? Then there's the fourth message. It's from this morning. It's X again. She tells me, "I haven't heard back from you, so I went ahead and did this (that "this" is something I asked her 3 days before NOT to do).
So, after listening to my messages, I'm a bit peeved. I don't really feel like calling X back. But right then my 10 o'clock client shows up. Saved. I'm meeting with her and guess who decides to drop in. It's X, ladies and gentlemen! OMG!
I politely step outside my office and tell X that I do not have time to speak with her right then because I'm with another client. So of course, she then launches into her big speech that I have failed to call her back and she's been worried. (Inside cg's mind: You called me yesterday and today 4 times, I don't think less than 24 hours constitutes failure to return a call.) I interrupt X and tell her that I unfortunately CANNOT talk, so I'll call her later. She leaves. I take 3 deep breathes, because I'm frustrated, and I return to my office.
Ok, so this is going to sound mean, but I really don't think that some of my clients understand that they aren't my only client. For example, yesterday I was in the office, just in the morning. I came in specifically to meet with two different clients. I probably should have checked my voicemail, but I didn't.
I came in the office this morning. I checked my voicemail. I had 4 messages. First message was from yesterday. It was from client X. X told me that she needed to talk to me asap and to call her back as soon as I listened to her message. The second message is from X's number. She did not leave a message, but her number came up in the Caller ID. Third message. Guess who it's from? It's from X! She tells me in an exasperated voice that she's been calling and she reminds me I have yet to call her back. Really? Then there's the fourth message. It's from this morning. It's X again. She tells me, "I haven't heard back from you, so I went ahead and did this (that "this" is something I asked her 3 days before NOT to do).
So, after listening to my messages, I'm a bit peeved. I don't really feel like calling X back. But right then my 10 o'clock client shows up. Saved. I'm meeting with her and guess who decides to drop in. It's X, ladies and gentlemen! OMG!
I politely step outside my office and tell X that I do not have time to speak with her right then because I'm with another client. So of course, she then launches into her big speech that I have failed to call her back and she's been worried. (Inside cg's mind: You called me yesterday and today 4 times, I don't think less than 24 hours constitutes failure to return a call.) I interrupt X and tell her that I unfortunately CANNOT talk, so I'll call her later. She leaves. I take 3 deep breathes, because I'm frustrated, and I return to my office.
11.05.2008
A Journey
It all started about 6 years ago when I stopped believing in the United States. I found out that my white america was very, very different than the america that many other people experienced. I was abruptly and insecurely pushed off the "proud to be an american" ledge. I was mad. I was mad at my parents who I then assumed fed me lies all throughout my childhood. I was mad at my school, my church, and my religion for "hiding" the truth of the real world around me. If I had to repeat this journey again, I would still be angry. I would have still fought with my parents on the phone over and over again about the inequality that plagues america and the false claim that one can be whoever they want to be. I would have still questioned the christian church and its commitment not to evangelize to the world, but to provide physical relief and to heal and mend the pain felt by people across the U.S. I would not have changed the anger, because the anger was what I needed to feel. Anger at the United States was part of what drove me to where I am now. The anger was constructive, but the depression that followed was demobilizing. After a couple of years, I gave up. I would not listen to any message of hope, because it seemed to be false hope. It seemed as though the hope was belittling the suffering. God was not powerful and loving, she/he was an imaginary friend people made up to make life a little bit easier. My passion and my energy spent, I came to San Francisco.
What I found in San Francisco, I still cannot put into words. I CAN tell you that this city has changed me. The mixture of the crazies, the yuppies, the gays and lesbians, the disadvantaged, the hippies, the hipsters, the immigrants, and me changed something. San Francisco and all its san franciscans gave me hope.
I still feel anger to this day at the injustice around me. My hope is that this anger will never go away, but instead that it will keeping me fighting to change lives, policies, and laws. I hope that I never reach the point that I am numb to the homeless man asking me for money. I hope that I never make a decision to deny people their full constitutional rights under the law. I hope that I never see poverty as a "their" issue and not an "our" issue. I hope that I never grow out of trying to understand individuals' situations and I hope I never see someone as not deserving.
My hope was further extended by the presidential nomination of Barack Obama. And I am now happy to say that he will be the next president of the United States of America.
Barack Obama's campaign to the white house was nothing but historic. As I watched the votes flood in last night, it made me proud for the first time in my adult life to call myself an american. It made me proud watching the tears stream down Rev. Jesse Jackson's face. It made me proud to think of the many eldery african americans that never thought they would see this day come with their own eyes. It made me proud that my generation was essential to this shining moment. It made me proud.
Congratulations Barack Obama and Joe Biden!
What I found in San Francisco, I still cannot put into words. I CAN tell you that this city has changed me. The mixture of the crazies, the yuppies, the gays and lesbians, the disadvantaged, the hippies, the hipsters, the immigrants, and me changed something. San Francisco and all its san franciscans gave me hope.
I still feel anger to this day at the injustice around me. My hope is that this anger will never go away, but instead that it will keeping me fighting to change lives, policies, and laws. I hope that I never reach the point that I am numb to the homeless man asking me for money. I hope that I never make a decision to deny people their full constitutional rights under the law. I hope that I never see poverty as a "their" issue and not an "our" issue. I hope that I never grow out of trying to understand individuals' situations and I hope I never see someone as not deserving.
My hope was further extended by the presidential nomination of Barack Obama. And I am now happy to say that he will be the next president of the United States of America.
Barack Obama's campaign to the white house was nothing but historic. As I watched the votes flood in last night, it made me proud for the first time in my adult life to call myself an american. It made me proud watching the tears stream down Rev. Jesse Jackson's face. It made me proud to think of the many eldery african americans that never thought they would see this day come with their own eyes. It made me proud that my generation was essential to this shining moment. It made me proud.
Congratulations Barack Obama and Joe Biden!
11.04.2008
today is the day...
Today is the day to exercise your civic right. Today is the day to exercise your civic duty.
Stop reading my blog and go VOTE!
Stop reading my blog and go VOTE!
11.02.2008
Cooking with Micah
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